Mind Jobs On Discount!!!

This is one of 'those' blogs...thot abt it last nite, shud ve jus typed then...mind is completely blank...rather...how 2 put it in words...

That was the issue...how DO you put it in words?? Then you do somehow, miraculously put it in words...and then now how the hell do u put words/thots in action?is it enough if you say it/type it/write it...when do you realize enough is enough, lemme keep up to my words?and then its tat stupid chain reaction shit...every action has its reaction bla bla bla. Alrite...i'm still wavering wid putting my thots into words...but you see that's the point here...

Quite sometime back, things were wut they seemed - no complications, no false promises...actually nothing! and now...a verdict is passed, an initiative...and what a void it has created. a fren, a very close fren asked me why fear is the in thing now...it overrules all our actions/decisions/thots.we aren't even fearing fear, just graciously accepting it!i'm sitting here wondering what's worse...fear or expectation or omigod...hope!

There was a moment last nite when i had a whole load o emotions hit me at the same time...i'm telling you...all at one go.it was love, it was a fight, it was anger, it was a crumbling down of faith, hope, belief, nostalgia of gud, gr8 and bad things, crashing down...well it felt really weird.how do you get a point across to someone...in how many ways, how much of time? how do you convey to ppl that there are misconceptions in the world and they affect.everything comes with a price tag, doesn't it...family, friends, work...a script.dammit!!!

Was trying to tell someone to let go of wutever it is that is stopping them from acting...reacting.be it fear, be it any damn thing...(wut the hell is dis any damn thing btw??) wut is it thats stopping you man...there aint nothing to lose...you know it!fight it outta ur system!change???...change!!!

Then much later into the nite...i figured out sth...a solution.an option.ta-dah!here i am sitting in fear of wut the hell tat mite lead to...she's rite...fear really is doing the rounds. but u know...arnd the same time she and i had a talk abt fear was when i was confronted wid mine...palms r sweaty, knees weak, arms r heavy...i did it...i lost myself and there i was...SMI-friggin-LING!!!haa haa haa...feels like a joke...like a number done onto u...who's trippin on who???

When its fear...you just beat arnd da bush.when confronted you r takin a big ass chance...da result of which u land up writing a blog tat makes no sense anymore...tat once had a purpose last nite, but now is lost...