Supposing that God created this world...did it ever occur to you how much of patience he had to have to see it done...with all that drama about elements coming together...then of course, the whole deal with sorting things out...the where's and how's of creation...It's quite the irony that here we are mostly abusing/disrespecting all that perseverance. From nowhere it occurred to me about how things would have been otherwise...like if our nose was shaped/placed differently...you know something as simple as that.
What if things were not what they are? Is it because we all look so similar that it seems perfect? Why then do most of us strive to beat the cliche and rise up victorious against all odds...how is it that the human mind is sooooo erratic sooooo random...so independent (imperfect even) ?
As humans, we seem to be constantly challenged with so much that we stopped appreciating, loving...just being. It takes a whole load of faith to write down that script and actually believe that it's workable...even a critically acclaimed blockbuster!!! It takes a whole load of faith to pray for a friend's nightmare to end...to actually believe in this 'light at the end of the tunnel' concept. Boy it takes a miracle to make love work...you just don't want to give up...no signs yet.
Funnily though, it's when you stop for a breather and look back that things seem different...not what you mostly wanted it to be. So by looking back do you not look ahead? There's no denying of life that was so far...is that a lesson? But that poor lil' script...that movie desperate to be made...begging that you make it...you wrote it dammit! Well...it's not just the movie i'm talking about...more obvious than that.
The question is...well there are a lot of questions that need an answer. When your conviction does not pay, what more does it take? When your patience is sneered at by others...then what???
If I AM the new saint for the decade...what are you??? Haaa haa haaaaaa....
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
Mind Jobs On Discount!!!
This is one of 'those' blogs...thot abt it last nite, shud ve jus typed then...mind is completely blank...rather...how 2 put it in words...
That was the issue...how DO you put it in words?? Then you do somehow, miraculously put it in words...and then now how the hell do u put words/thots in action?is it enough if you say it/type it/write it...when do you realize enough is enough, lemme keep up to my words?and then its tat stupid chain reaction shit...every action has its reaction bla bla bla. Alrite...i'm still wavering wid putting my thots into words...but you see that's the point here...
Quite sometime back, things were wut they seemed - no complications, no false promises...actually nothing! and now...a verdict is passed, an initiative...and what a void it has created. a fren, a very close fren asked me why fear is the in thing now...it overrules all our actions/decisions/thots.we aren't even fearing fear, just graciously accepting it!i'm sitting here wondering what's worse...fear or expectation or omigod...hope!
There was a moment last nite when i had a whole load o emotions hit me at the same time...i'm telling you...all at one go.it was love, it was a fight, it was anger, it was a crumbling down of faith, hope, belief, nostalgia of gud, gr8 and bad things, crashing down...well it felt really weird.how do you get a point across to someone...in how many ways, how much of time? how do you convey to ppl that there are misconceptions in the world and they affect.everything comes with a price tag, doesn't it...family, friends, work...a script.dammit!!!
Was trying to tell someone to let go of wutever it is that is stopping them from acting...reacting.be it fear, be it any damn thing...(wut the hell is dis any damn thing btw??) wut is it thats stopping you man...there aint nothing to lose...you know it!fight it outta ur system!change???...change!!!
Then much later into the nite...i figured out sth...a solution.an option.ta-dah!here i am sitting in fear of wut the hell tat mite lead to...she's rite...fear really is doing the rounds. but u know...arnd the same time she and i had a talk abt fear was when i was confronted wid mine...palms r sweaty, knees weak, arms r heavy...i did it...i lost myself and there i was...SMI-friggin-LING!!!haa haa haa...feels like a joke...like a number done onto u...who's trippin on who???
When its fear...you just beat arnd da bush.when confronted you r takin a big ass chance...da result of which u land up writing a blog tat makes no sense anymore...tat once had a purpose last nite, but now is lost...
That was the issue...how DO you put it in words?? Then you do somehow, miraculously put it in words...and then now how the hell do u put words/thots in action?is it enough if you say it/type it/write it...when do you realize enough is enough, lemme keep up to my words?and then its tat stupid chain reaction shit...every action has its reaction bla bla bla. Alrite...i'm still wavering wid putting my thots into words...but you see that's the point here...
Quite sometime back, things were wut they seemed - no complications, no false promises...actually nothing! and now...a verdict is passed, an initiative...and what a void it has created. a fren, a very close fren asked me why fear is the in thing now...it overrules all our actions/decisions/thots.we aren't even fearing fear, just graciously accepting it!i'm sitting here wondering what's worse...fear or expectation or omigod...hope!
There was a moment last nite when i had a whole load o emotions hit me at the same time...i'm telling you...all at one go.it was love, it was a fight, it was anger, it was a crumbling down of faith, hope, belief, nostalgia of gud, gr8 and bad things, crashing down...well it felt really weird.how do you get a point across to someone...in how many ways, how much of time? how do you convey to ppl that there are misconceptions in the world and they affect.everything comes with a price tag, doesn't it...family, friends, work...a script.dammit!!!
Was trying to tell someone to let go of wutever it is that is stopping them from acting...reacting.be it fear, be it any damn thing...(wut the hell is dis any damn thing btw??) wut is it thats stopping you man...there aint nothing to lose...you know it!fight it outta ur system!change???...change!!!
Then much later into the nite...i figured out sth...a solution.an option.ta-dah!here i am sitting in fear of wut the hell tat mite lead to...she's rite...fear really is doing the rounds. but u know...arnd the same time she and i had a talk abt fear was when i was confronted wid mine...palms r sweaty, knees weak, arms r heavy...i did it...i lost myself and there i was...SMI-friggin-LING!!!haa haa haa...feels like a joke...like a number done onto u...who's trippin on who???
When its fear...you just beat arnd da bush.when confronted you r takin a big ass chance...da result of which u land up writing a blog tat makes no sense anymore...tat once had a purpose last nite, but now is lost...
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